Happy Mother's Day! - Continued

Okay.. Sambungannya...

Hihi.. Just like what I wrote in the previous entry.. I AM struggling...
To be successful in my career and at the same time.... to be a good mother..

As you all know, we sent Adam to Ashraf's auntie... So, from 8am - 7pm.. Adam is with Mami Tipah A.K.A Mak tipah (although Adam kena panggil Nenek Tipah dah.. tapi dia tak bagi panggil ;p) Every Monday-Friday...
Meaning I only can see/play with Adam after 7pm.. tuh pon some days.. Adam was already sleeping when I got home! N would not wake up to play pon :(

You have no idea how my "motherly instinct" felt like! Adoiiii... Bila tengok muka Adam.. Rasa macam dah kehilangan most of his precious moments! It scares me to death if Adam loves to be with Mami Tipah (bcos she's a terrific caretaker) more than being with me... sob sob! Hai Adam.. please don't do that to me.. k sayang!

Then, most Saturdays and Sundays.. We will balik Tanjung Tokong.. (rumah mak) almaklum sajalah.. his The One And Only Cucu..(Adam's gonna be a very spoilt child I tell ya) heh.. even from my family side.. dialah satu-satunyer cucu.... Walaupon begitu.. kami idak la slalu balik pasal jauh ngatttt!!!! Skali skala tuh bleh laa ;)

Emm.. even I do appreciate how everyone loves Adam... but sometimes I do wish I have more time for me, Adam and his papa to be together!

Dah la macam nih.. my boss nak gak I take 6 sigma classes which happens to be every alternate saturdays.. 9am - 5pm for three month!!!...Boy.. I DO really HATE my job now... Emmm.. to think of it.. sape la yang suka benor ngan kerja mereka? Dalam persekitaran saya.. susah la nak cari orang yang love their job... oh ya.. kecuali dek A.. Girl... I hope your job is as fun as the trainings... finger cross to you! Quitting my job does crosses my mind a few times but I don't think that's a wise decision, kan? Dah mintak ngan Boss untuk tidak menyertai kelas itu tapi dia tak bagi...nak wat camana??? Luckily dia setuju untuk saya menangguhkan dulu...saya bagi alasan untuk menunggu Adam besar sedikit lagi.. baru saya bleh join.... hey.. family comes first!!!!!

So.. tu lah serba sedikit dilema yang dihadapi..................................... N this is why I don't blog as much!